How should I live my life now?

I know this sounds horrible, but there are places you can take your kids so you don't have to take care of them, like care homes. they are pretty expensive. But I don't see how you'll have to care for your kids when they only have simple learning disabilities. I have a learning disability and math, and I can obviously take care of myself. You need to learn more about your children's disabilities, as they can't be jsut learning disabilities, which are easily taken care of with extra help. Also, you and your husband should seek counseling.