PLZ Help me my life is a MISERABLE hell hole waiting for me to fall into!!!?

my dad was the nicest thing for me to have. i lived with him and my stepmom till i was 13 then all hell broke loose. right excalty on my 13th he wasted no time to be mean to me. and now i live with my mom and stepdad and he NEVER CALLS ME ( cause he " doesnt know my # " ) and he dont come over to see me and do stuff with me when im @ my G.P house. he told me everytime i say i love u i DONT MEAN IT! and now i've lived with my mom for 2yrs and my dad has me on his child support and he's not supposed to and now my mom and dad have to go court and if he dont change it hes going to jail .and the girl my mom is workin with ( not a lawyer) wants me to write down some q's i want the judge to ask and i have some but i feel like all this was my fault and that i should be blamed for everything and i just wanna know how to cope with this. he also NEVER bought me any christmas,b-day etc. for me. and he wud git me 2 go to my G.P's so he and my s.m cud go to the mall and the buy me nothing